It has been a while since I have written a post.  We have been getting back into the swing of things with a school routine, and I must be honest and say the first three weeks were pretty stressful and I was pretty overwhelmed.  Last week was our fourth week and I finally felt the rhythm flowed naturally for us.  I haven’t really thought about much except educating my kids, until recently.  And this morning while I sat and prayed and read scripture, I felt inspired to write.  I feel the best writing comes with inspiration.

My baby is currently 10.5 months old, he is not so much a baby anymore.  For me this would be about the time I get pregnant again. I conceived Lydia when Abel was 8 months, I conceived James when Lydia was 10 months, I conceived when James was 11 months and then miscarried and then conceived 4 months after the miscarriage with Micah.   It seems for the past month as I have gone to church and people see that my baby is getting bigger, I am asked at least once a week if I want more.  I smile and tell them that I am open for whatever.

Telling people in today’s age that you are open for whatever when it comes to children, often takes people by surprise.  I hear all sorts of responses.  Some say, “I was never a baby person, I know some people just love babies.”  Others say,”well if you can, then why not.”  Some tell me, “that they could never have handled that.”  I usually just smile.  I often think, “yea, I don’t really love the baby stage either, it’s tiring.” Or, “Physically God has opened my womb so I can have babies, but if you mean by can financially, I am not sure people would think it is financially responsible for us to have more babies.”  Or to the last comment,” I can’t really handle it, but by the grace of God he has grown me and sanctified me and equipped me.”

I do not feel like supermom.  Being a mother does not come easily, I still have selfish desires and lose my patience.  We don’t have a great financial plan of how we will make sure our kids can buy a car and how we can pay for their college.  I don’t have amazing babies who sleep through the night.  My labors are not quick and easy and painless.  I don’t have perfect children who listen all the time.  All to say, I am not open to having more babies because it is easy and convenient.

I am open to having more babies because I have had a conviction that it is not an area I need to be in control of.  This in itself has been beyond freeing.  I believe that biblically the LORD has been in control of the womb and I have asked him to be in control of mine.

Genesis 20:18
For the Lord had closed all the wombs of the house of Abimelech because of Sarah, Abraham’s wife.
Genesis 29:31
When the Lord saw that Leah was hated, he opened her womb, but Rachel was barren.
1 Samuel 1:5
But to Hannah he gave a double portion, because he loved her, though the Lord had closed her womb.

I am open to having more babies because I believe that babies are a reward and not a burden.
Psalm 113:9
He gives the barren woman a home, making her the joyous mother of children. Praise the Lord!
Psalm 127:3-4
Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord, the fruit of the womb a reward.
Like arrows in the hand of a warrior are the children of one’s youth.
Psalm 128:3
Your wife will be like a fruitful vine within your house; your children will be like olive shoots around your table.
I am open to having more babies because I believe God has called women to be mothers and I believe it is Ok for it to be their life’s work.
Malachi 2:15
“Did he not make them one, with a portion of the Spirit in their union? And what was the one God seeking? Godlyoffspring. So guard yourselves in your spirit, and let none of you be faithless to the wife of your youth.”
1 Timothy 5:14
“So I would have younger widows marry, bear children, manage their households, and give the adversary no occasion for slander.”
1 Timothy 5:10
“and having a reputation for good works: if she has brought up children, has shown hospitality, has washed the feet of the saints, has cared for the afflicted, and has devoted herself to every good work.”
1 Timothy 2:15 ( know this does not mean literal salvation)
“Yet she will be saved through childbearing—if they continue in faith and love and holiness, with self-control.”
Genesis 1:28
God blessed them and said to them, “Be fruitful and increase in number; fill the earth and subdue it.
I am open to having more children because I believe God will equip me with what I need and he will use my children to make me look more like his Son Jesus.

2 Corinthians 12:9
“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.”
2 Peter 1:3
“His divine power has granted to us all things that pertain to lifeandgodliness, through the knowledge of him who called us to his own glory and excellence,”

I am open to having more children because what if this is the way God is calling me to present myself as a living sacrifice and what if children are those more important than myself.
Romans 12:1
” I appeal to you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship.”
Philippians 2:3-7
” Do nothing from selfish ambition or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves. Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others. Have this mind among yourselves, which is yours in Christ Jesus, who, though he was in the form of God, did not count equality with God a thing to be grasped,  but emptied himself, by taking the form of a servant,being born in the likeness of men.”
Lastly, I am open to having more children because I believe it is an eternal investment.
I am rasing up disciples of Christ, not by my own power, but by God working through me and in the hearts of my children.  Also, children are one thing that have eternal value. Children are eternal souls.  We will not take our possessions into eternity or our financial savings into eternity, but all of our children that are In Christ will enter into eternity with us.  Discipleship takes place in day-to-day living, our children will be the most effective disciples we ever have.  My prayer is for each child’s salvation and that the LORD would use them to expand his Gospel an be lights in a dark and dying world.